The Lord is Good All the time . . .

But sometimes He pulls through for me in a special way. I have been getting more and more nervous about school books. I had, had to take a fair portion of the money my husband had allotted for school and spend it on other things, (Gas and clothes for the kids, groceries; you know the drill.) Plus, while I got one son's math curriculum used, it was still over $100.00 dollars. That didn't seem so bad when I had all my allotted money but now I'm beginning to second guess myself.

I prayed about it and was sure of my decisions but as money gets short you wonder if you got it wrong somehow. So for the past three weeks I've been setting here contemplating whether I should choose a free program for my other son. It's a very good program but when I pray about it I don't feel free to use it. As a matter of fact the clear message I get is "trust Me." (I really hate it when I here that one, it always means a lesson in faith is coming.) So that's what I've been trying to do and it's been getting harder and harder. That is until today.

Math for one son and writing and part of history for the other for the other are the only things I have left except for a few literature books which I can pick up as I go along if need be. Not much I know but necessary still yet. Lately I couldn't help but wonder if I was getting it wrong; maybe I was being stubborn when I should be looking at other options. Then what should drop into my hands today but the thing I least expected to buy used; my youngest son's Math program. More over I found it at a place that I rarely go at less than 1/2 price. I can't believe that no one else got to it before I did. It was as if the Lord had put it there and covered it up waiting for me to come along to get it. What a blessing!

Now I find myself sitting here embarrassed thinking how many time have I heard the older members of my church say "The Lord is never late, but He's never early either. He always comes right on time." Boy are they wise and boy am I embarrassed that my faith is so small. I sure am feeling better about things turning out OK with the rest of my curriculum though.

Now if I can just get to the point of rejoicing when I hear the Lord say Trust Me rather than feeling dread.